This is one I’ve been putting off for a few days. My cousin died on New Years Day about 3:30 pm. He’s been dealing with cancer for a couple of years but only recently told people. I have felt nothing; I have no sadness in my body. My mom is beside herself, as is her sister, my aunt, his mom. He was a racist, homophobe, fundamentalist. I spent Thanksgiving with him many years ago and the remarks that came out of his mouth I have yet to forget. It was nigger this, faggot that. These days, I would not have just sat there and put it up with it, but I thought at the time, I would just keep the peace on Thanksgiving. How I’ve changed over the years. He ran off his daughter when she got pregnant and wanted to marry the guy. They went to court to take custody of the baby but lost the case along with contact with their daughter for many years. I’ve been to his church and listened to the small town Southern Baptist preacher preaching as they all agreed with all he said. I don’t think I’ve been in a church since. My aunt asked him to say some words for my lesbian aunt who had just died but he didn’t. He just preached the evils of the gays. I have no sadness, no tears, no nothing. I’ll send a sincere card to my aunt, telling her of my sorrow for her loss because she is a wonderful woman. I won’t say I’m sorry he’s gone.
We finally had a chance to see Milk today. It was really good. I’ve seen The Life and Times of Harvey Milk many years ago but this one went much deeper into his personal life and what drove him rather than just chronicle it. Go see it if you haven’t.
We got another inch of snow today which ain’t much but that’s on top of the nine inches on New Years Eve and the more than two feet we had earlier in December. It’s going nowhere soon either.
People have been talking about how bad 2008 was, but for me, it was much improved. Yea, I’ve lost a lot of money on investments this year but who hasn’t? And I feel fortunate to have a job at a stable company. 2007 was the year I thought I was going to lose my folks and did lose my dog of 15 years. It took a LONG time for me to get over losing Kaleb. We still talk about her but it’s usually humorous. My folks are doing well, especially my mom. I have the best partner ever. So here’s to 2009 only being better.
Still trying to catch up, I had a dream about getting stints put up in my sinus cavities for an experimental surgery, ran all the way to Wal-Mart without even losing my breath, and calling Duncan to pick me up only because I was tired. Another dream involved Eartha Kitt. We were having a big gay dinner party and she was at the head of a huge table. She took off her clothes and had a penis. I’m not only behind on this blog but my dream blog too. Planning to move it to wordpress too but you know how long it took me to convert this…still working on it.
And speaking of Eartha Kitt, did you notice that every gay blog tributed her when she died last week?

















